Bad Company's Go0o0o0oD

Today's Vesak Day.... I'm in the office on a Public Holiday... I'm in the office at 7 in the AM on a Public Holiday... Hahahaa - so NOT funny.
Plus, think I'm having all the symptoms of being sick. Throat's very the sore, shivering when I'm actually heating up inside. Add that to the on-going sinus... wah lah! I get meself a neatly-packaged FEVER. Urgh! :S But nvm that. Insya Allah, at 3pm, I can finally get some Vitamin S,U,N and all is well.

Some ppl love being out in the sun but I think for me, I actually need to be out in the sun. I'm hot-blooded. Yup, you read me right. Your blood may be warm but mine's hot. Dunno why. Can't answer why cos me blur too. No doctor has actually told me this lah but this is purely my personal opinion. Maybe this fever is causing me to babble extra today... ONLY read on if you really got nothing better to do. Coz trust me, whatever I'm typing next is plain blahblahblah. I'm entertaining myself really. heehee...

My humble theory is, being in air-conned space for long period of time makes me sick. My natural body heat's trapped with this supposed cooling environment and I just need to sweat out this trapped heat in me. Some ppl actually jog to sweat. ??!! I think that's plain Duh. Jogging is at the very bottom of my exercise regime list, IF I had an exercise regime list in the 1st place of course. haha! hmmm... Swimming is the best but the downside of it is the hassle of washing up after. I wanna swim but I'm too lazy to wash up after that swim.... hmmmmm again. I'd rather sweat it out by having walks on a sunny day to "neutralise" my "zi" so that my "ying" can finally balance with my "yang". hahaa!. (Told ya I'm babbling :P) Bottom line is, I'm more to a fan than an air-con kinda person. I'm also a mama-con kinda person but nvm that. heee... (it's a private joke ppl. Let it slide.) Natural breeze is the best of course but I dun fancy so much the seaside breeze coz that will leave you feeling sticky and "salty". Get what i mean? No? nvm.. same here. I'm having such a headache.. Sigh...

The initial main motive to log in and write was coz of this particular song below. Dearest dad sent me to work and he played this throughout the journey. Oya Oyea, remember this song? Memories aaaaall the way from Depot Road. Power to the max lah the song! We used to listen to Bad Company all the time coz I guess it was on my dear dad's list of top 10 on 10 songs then. Nevermind we were then just diaper-wearing kids, we still swayed along to the bad-ass band. After all this time, the song still rawks la. I enjoy it more now coz this time, I actually understand the words.. haahaaa..

Go here -> http://youtube.com/watch?v=BfHDJYvZPwg
(lovin' the old skool vid. awesome!)

K people! Sing along now!...

Walkin' down this rocky road
Wondering where my life is leadin'
Rollin' on to the bitter end
Finding out along the way
What it takes to keep love living
You should know how it feels, my friend

Ooh, I want you to stay
Ooh, I want you today

I'm ready for love
Oh baby, I'm ready for love
Ready for love
Oh baby, I'm ready for love

Now I'm on my feet again
Better things are bound to happen
All my dues surely must be paid
Many miles and many tears
Times were hard but now they're changing
You should know that I'm not afraid

Ooh, I want you to stay
Ooh, I want you today

I'm ready for love
Oh baby, I'm ready for love
I'm ready for love
Oh baby, I'm ready for love
Oh, for your love

Written by a feverish rock chick.
!Rock steady!!

comMEnts, comMEnts and more comMEnts.....

I'm supposed to clear all of my 300+ emails from Yahoo but I think, that can wait. Maybe till it reaches 400, then I'll clear la. Maybe. haha! There's more "imporrrtantey" stuff to get done, like this particular entry here. heeehee...

This entry is dedicated to all you people who set aside some time to read my blab.
This entry is an ode really, to the ppl who don't just read but who actually set aside precious time to leave comments after reading my blab. hahaa! you guys rawk laaa! 7 comments from my last entry?! 7! Awesome la you guys. My blog is slowly but surely turning into a forum online. hahaaa!! Sssshhh...shameless. Read on read on!

The thing is I gotta admit, I do kinda feel violated, hee heee.., to know that strangers are actually reading thus at the same time intruding on my life, albeit virtually. Read, leave comments if you wanna, but please lah, favour can, sign off the next time you comment pls. I have no idea who left these comments below. Really, I'm kinda freaked.


example #1:
"more ' international language ' pls!!"

example #2:
"we want international language!!!!

example #3:
So....life is not so bored now....and working at nite is a hazard to u now...hhmmmmm"

and my favourite, example #4:
"U mcm si Rice tu??? kalu me, ape eh??? kasi the web addresslah.. ingin tau jugak seh... yea, u are laidback, asal bleh but not serba boleh.. he he he he he.. macam iyer2??? yes, me agree wif dat 110%!!!.. Peace ;)"

I still dunno who left all this comments. Commentator #4, 'fess up. Come on, who are you? After all this time, I'm still clueless. I feel stalked la. hmmm....
I'm so freaked out that I may not publish future comments left by anyone ANONYMOUS anymore. It's my page, my right and my choice lah. Agree? So if you wanna comment, just comment already. I appreaciate ALL comments, young and old. haha! But if you want me to actually publish your comments, do sign off ya. Simple. Easy does it. plssss? hmmm...

I insert here necessary examples of desired comments:

example #1:
"who is tis anonymous bugger... 'international language???' English IS darling, whoever u are...ps: heeeelllooo... where is my comment... takut ke ape?? publish it or else!! oya oyea

example #2:
"So....life is not so bored now....and working at nite is a hazard to u now...hhmmmmm"....in another words, she got life now peeps...pink blossom cherry is now her fav colour!!.... >roll eyes<...oya oyea"

and my favourite for obvious reasons, heehee... example #3:
"Hum Ho Gaye Aap Ke,Pyaar Ishq Aur Mohabbat,Sachaa Pyar,Mujhe tumhare fikar hai,Mujhe tumse dil se pyar hai,Mujhe tumse pyar hai...Yett minute..Tum Ha Inspector Sahab Bombay police Station speaking...hahahaha..Hindi sikit la..Tamil lum pandai tapi tetap mamak jugak..Bahu ada bengkak jugak!Tenss Kak for meeting up..Insyallah we meet up again..Tensss." Sampion-G

Note that all 3 comments have been signed by Oya Oyea (ma dear sis) and Sampion-G (ma dear. isshh..haha!)

By signing off, I can then know who are readers/intruders/fans are and thus can sleep better at night. Du-uh!

I'm so0o0o0o0o0oo long winded, I know. Just commenting on comments alone can make me comment such a long comment. What?! hahaaa!! Dun mind me, I'm just happy. Syukur Alhamdullilah.

Ahem. So to make a long entry short;
read, leave a comment or two by all means but puh-lease do sign off. I cannot emphasise more on this. Heck, a whole entry on comments alone, you'd think I mean business right. Ok guys? Love yo'all and love love me. *wink* hahaahaa!

p/s: To Oya Oyea, I had a life before but now life is just more colourful okaaaaay?? Hpmh! haha. And kak, pleasssse.............CHILL. The sentence below is especially written with YOU in mind. Kaaaauu! :p

All comments have always been moderated and subjected to yours truly's approval. Nothing changes. So be nice.

p/p/s:
I've been crying for so long,
Fighting tears just to carry on,
But now, but now, it's gone away. Love Love.... :D

"My Choice. My Future"

Hari ini ku datang riang, tersenyum buat mu sorang....... :)
I'm simply on cloud 9. If there's a higher cloud than that, maybe cloud 20 (?), I'm THERE. :p hee..hee..Syukur Alhamdulillah!!

It's Family Day on 190507. I'm so touched.....I'm speechless. Trima kasih banyak cik. For inviting, for the acceptance, for the "openness", for the "M" word said 3 times (wow!), for the kuih bakar badam which now happens to be my favourite kueh btw. hahahaa! Bukan nak "score brownie/kuehbakar points" here, but seriously, 1st time ever to taste kuih bakar, I find it simply delish. Yumz. Maybe it's filled with sweet memories la that's why. heee.... Thank you all!

Listening to Coldplay singing We Live In A Beautiful World. It really is. =) All thanks be to Allah!

Who needs the MRT when you can have lo0o0ong bus rides?? Truly special. The whole day was one long bus ride to me. Enjoyed e-ve-ry single minute of it. Going to and coming back may seem like a normal everyday thing but it's not. It really is just super! I've said this before and I just have to say this again here.. "Destination not always the important thing. It's the journey getting there that counts." To walk aimlessly is F-U-N. Heck, i dun even mind a bit being "lost" as long as I'm lost with U. Aaaaawww... Super duper swee-wweet. heeheee... It's not just a long search for caffeine craving, it's actually a time to know more about ourselves I think. Bottom line, we're so the 711, fast food, fussfree kinda ppl. Best eh wak? I like that. 20 points added to us! And oh, Coffee Club is a no-no. Dun join the club coz it's not halal. Another one bites the dust. We got to know that too by being "lost". Yessssaa. It's aaall good.But after all that peluh dan keletihan (cian awak), we did find that coffeeplace after all. I mean, YOU found that coffeeplace (just follow the arrow). Thanks eh wak. Sayang awak. The coffee tasted that much sweeter coz of your "tak pedulik" attitude. Mmmmmmm.... :) Still May. Still birthday month. I hope it feels like our birthday months every month la wak, Insya Allah. Best pressies ever! Tenss hor.

The list just keeps getting longer.... The photo album of memories should be thick if things maintain the way they are now. Click Click! Insya Allah for 20 years and more.... Doa and effort tu musti. "Always Here For You." The fishy.. To be in motion while being still....
Love 'em all. I've framed all these and more in ma heart. Sometimes tho, it can be a lil too much... This is not a complaint. This is counting HIS blessings yet again. I dun think I can ever stop. Utterly grateful.

Bus ride yet again. =D It's a new hobby really. hee hee.. Arm rested, you can put your head on my shoulder, thumbs up many times... what more can you ask for? I'm happy.
The mini magic show was simply... hahahaa!! I still cannot take it. "lei bobal tol2 tak?!" hahaa!
thumbs up lagi la tuk awak. hahaa! Mmmmmmm... U do smell like baked cookies. Fresh from the oven. heee... *wink*

So g'night. See u when I see you.......again. With that awsome gray hood maybe? Nicenessss..

Oh yah, happee birthday to James who is all of 40 years old.
Saper sey James? James and the Giant Peach laaaa.. saper lagik. Du-uuh!
James... James.... heee....


Question: when it feels too much to contain, simply too much to bear and threatening waterworks now and again, what do you do? Or rather, what is the right thing to do?

"Good morning, how can I help?"

Already a year to 9th May 2006. Cepat sey. Time really flies huh. The time has come for me to sign on the dotted line again. Confirming to continue at current employment for yet another year.

"We are excited about having you join us and look forward to welcoming you at SCS." Those are the words that explains it all. Hey, I'm excited too. Syukur Alhamdulillah atas rezkiMu ini. Terms and conditions suitable? Yes, they are, thank you. :) Although I did have to put up a fight, the outcome is generously positive. To think I almost settled. I'm glad I didn't, but even if I did settle for that 1st offer, I wouldn't have minded also. Aaaaaall is good. The beginning of 3rd year. Feels like I've been here for more than that. I guess that's a good thing yah. The colleagues, gerek. Sumer satu hati. Tak kira bahasa, bangsa atau agama. Haahaa.. The very 1st workplace for me where all the ppl are a mellow bunch. Not hyped at all. All the family-oriented sort. No clubbing talk whatsoever. I like that. Chill.. It's helpdesk (sometimes helldesk) against the public. Hahahaa.. Irritating public. I can whine and complain about the public till no end, but come pay day, I'm silenced. Heeee.. Standard. Complaining will start again when saham dah merosot (usually a few days later. pft!).. Tu pon standard jgak.. hehee...

home away from home...

So I'm staying. With more responsibilities this time. I dun mind at all. In fact, I find myself welcoming the chance to prove my worth. I'm surprised at my own behaviour, really. I'm taking this quite well, even if I do say so myself. I guess it beats the mundaness of "hello, can I help?" Also, hopefully, with this added in-charge duty, they'll realise that they actually need me. I'm indispensable. Yaaaah right... :P Who knows right? But BC HR did share the managements' view on my performance. Dun want to state them here lah. Tak best lah nak share. Mcm riya' plak. :p Let's just say I like, glad and appreciate with what was shared. HAPPY!

The past few days tho, got me thinking. If I do leave this place, I realised there's one thing that I'd miss about SCS. What can it be?.............................

My Dreamwalk.

The walkway to/from work. Something about this passageway that just calms me. Not just a path, it provides time to reflect on myself (i should control my temper better tmr), to just forget about the crappiness of the day (stupid callers, degil smcm) and be happy and grateful for the day. Really a moment to myself I guess. I need that. No other employement can provide me this. Who would have thought, the one incentive the company can offer to me is not written on the contract at all. hee... Just look at them huge tress. Very pretty right. The one above is my favourite. Temptation to climb it, everytime I pass it. Hee... Tapi... ada orang plak. Hmmm..

I'm counting my blessings really. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Before I end this, I gotta add this lah. Sheens, you're swit. It's official. 160507. Super Switi Sheens Day. hahaa!! Girlfriend told me to write in the "international" language in the future. Think she meant English lah so she can read my entries. Swit right? Wait, it gets sweeter. Switty Sheens actually did online translation from Malay to English just so she can know what I write! Gosh! A for effort lah girl! Naturally I gotta ask her " a) are my posts that interesting that she die2 needs to know or b) is she just being her natural Kpo self? Answer is B. Can't say I'm surprised really. Haahaaa.. Cute la Sheens. But cuteness aside, you seriously gotta anwer more calls. Honeymoon's over. You got waaaay too much time on your hands. heee hee.. (Notice I wrote this whole paragraph in the "international" languange, as per your request.) I'm so considerate and you're most welcome. *wink*

Aaaawww... Swity Sheen's shy.. (Nice watch)

p/s: any requests to bring down any pictures will not be entertained. Haahaa! Luv ya, swit!

Becoz on d menu of life, you are Today's Special. And tmr's... and the day after that....

Is this what they call a writer's block? hmm... mcm maner peh writer je Shah.. hahaa! I do not know how to start this particular entry. So0o0o many things, good events, have happened and I'm utterly grateful. Gratitude feels me to the very core of my heart that no words can truly express how I'm feeling now. Everything happens for a reason and I'm glad things turn out they way they do right up till this very date. Simply put, the weather before was dark, very dark indeed. For a few years, the skies was gloomy grey, threatening stormy rain every day but Alhamdullilah, all praises belong to Allah SWT, I feel things are starting to look up for me. Clear cloudy bright sunny days (with rainbow too?) is in the weather forecast ahead. Insya Allah. I welcome rainy days before for totally different reasons now. It was easy to cry in the rain. You dun look sad coz nobody knows you're crying. Everybody's busy finding shelter from the wetness but those raindrops… They sealed my tears perfectly... You are fortunate Shah... Syukur aku kepada Yang Maha Esa. Haaaaaaaaaiiizz!! (bukan apa, sigh of relief! Heee..)

i love mak! Of all the dumbass things I've done before, of all the heartaches I've caused her, of all the tears of disappointment she shed because of my reckless actions, i love mak. To hear those approving words coming from her now, I really dunno what to say. Asha sayang mak. Terima kasih mak. Sob.. sob..sob… What were you thinking, Shah?! Sigh.. Sib baiklah tersadar sblom terlambat. Aku mohon, Ya Allah, ko panjangkanlah umur ibuku dalam ibadah.. Berikanlah dia kesihatan... Not only for my dear mum, Oh God. I ask this for all the mums out there. Amin. I dunno what I'd do without her... I dun even wanna think about that. Cannot take it! Dah..dah..dah..

So many dates to take note of lately… heee..120507. Need to put in writing, more permanent storage space. 256MG(?) memory la katakan. Hahaa! Sheesh.. Nama jer helpdesk. This is one helpdesk that actually needs help. Pffft. Anyhoo, I shall now start this with a happy note coz I AM HAPPY. Alhamdulillah.

The highlight of the day was OF COURSE the reason there were butterflies in tummy, the moth in throat, the gedak-geduk..gedak-geduk….. Kanchiong jap. I felt so grateful to Allah SWT when it rained lightly. It was only for a few minutes but long enough for me to appreaciate the fact that maybe HE is showering HIS blessings on the whole event. The MTP (part 1of 2) session went smoothly enough. Syukur Alhamdullilah. Rasa2 mcm dah pass..??? Hehee.... rasa2 jerrr.... Not with flying colours mcm org tuuuu but I think it went well enough. In fact, it went better than what I imagined/expected. The atmosphere was relaxed enough sampai mcm lupa diri gitu… asik makan je Shah, bebual tadak….Kental. hahaa! Nvm, better luck next time. Gotta thank Filda lah for choosing the makan place. Think it was the hustle and bustle of “cooking” yang buat the situation relax. That and of course the laid-back family I’m so thankful to meet. Very the same….. heee.. But dun think I can afford to heave a sigh of relief just yet la.. Tu baru round pertama. The real MTP to me is the next one scheduled on … I dunno when. Insya Allah, when there’s more talk than cooking, I can then know whether I’ve passed anot. Dah tak lei sembunyi dah…Eksen goreng2 konon. Hahaa!! Time tu lah, when the feedback is good, I can smile. Insya Allah. No worriesss eh wak.. mmmmmm…

“Everyone Can Sleep Well Now.” IKEA ni mcm tau jer.. hahaa..

It was a perfect day. Really. From the moment I was at the escalator. The day started for me then. J The 1st long busride to Q’way. It was such a long ride that I thought we were going KL for a moment. Tak bawak passport lak wak. Wink. To see you wearing those caps (NICE!) and just being happy AND kerek at the same time. I love it when you’re happy. To see that senyuman yang manissss…Priceless. Aaaaawww… Sorrylah kengkawan. Can’t help but to be mushy here. awak… the train is noisy now. Mmmmmm… IKEA was fun. Lo0o0o0ong time never been there. I just loved looking at the frames section. Those scenic pictures… There’s this painting I call my own. Lupa lak nak amik picture of that picture. Eerrr… It was very colourful. Rainbow-like mess. Exactly how I’m feeling now. I can relate to that picture. Very nice. Didn’t buy it or anything but I did named it though: “Aishah @ the moment”. Du-uuh.. hahaaa! Insya Allah, we'll snaphot all those places eh. Mmmmmm..
Of all the pictures that’s hang on the wall, the best gotta be the one inside my bag. Simple yet very special. I love it. To others, it may be just a shopping list, but to me, it’s the epitome of sweetness. Andai meke tahu. Thank U.. Hmm… think I’ll frame it. Heehehe… Serious. Hahaa!

After the hearty meal at Hans River, nak kena lah exercise skit. Dah bonc ni. Best exercise routine ever: walking aimlessly…. You should try it. I simply love it. Strolling at night at THAT place is just….dunno what to say lah. I’m so grateful. Being there with you at the “kolam ikan” (sungai lah) was breathtaking lah wak. Trima kasih ikan2 di laut/kolam..(sungai) heee.. Ya Allah, kurniakanlah permohonan hambaMu ini… Amin.

It’s time to go home. I hate goodbyes. Dun like it. The going home part was…. Sigh sigh sigh!…. Dun wish to go into details la. P&C. For those in the know…
"stop hurting, start living"

I see u when I see you again…….soon? Insya Allah… mmmmmmm…
I’m looking at you.

p/s: baju ada datang pulaak. Heeehee.. awak pon. =)


Deadly Brain says:
insyallah...kita doa2 sama eh..

whynotmorningsmile says:
of coz. of coz i will..........

Celebrity Lookalike?! Puh-leeese!

K ppl, I'm traumatised. Actually not traumatised laaaah.
Drama mama onleee.. hmmmm...

There's a bit of idle time at work so kinda strayed to other sites... Discovered this website that scans your face (you gotta upload your face-front photo) and it will present you with the results of which hollywood celebrities you look most alike with. It even gives you a percentage similarity.. yaaaaahh riiiight...
Maybe you can sense some bitterness in my tone/type (eeerr...). Who wouldn't be? I know I shouldn't give a care to some stupid random online webresult coz I like what I see in the mirror, Alhamdulillah! But... aaaaw man. There's this particular person that I'm supposed to lookalike with and to me, she is far from pleasant looking. Simply NOT pretty laa..

:( Condoleezza Rice! Kaaauu! Stupid website. Hahaa!
Apa dah?! And the best part? The punchline? I think so tooo. :S I cannot dispute the result laaa. I can but not convincingly coz think yes, I agree. hee.. I DO look like her. pft!

I also realise that most of the celebrities that I'm supposed to lookalike are African American. Nothing against them really,in fact I think black is beautiful. But I am against looking like Condoleezza Rice. And....... I look 80% similar to Oprah. Oprah?! Imagine that! sigh... Queen Latifah, Gabriel Union. I haven't the slightest idea who this Gabriel Union person is and why she is significant enough to have her face listed online but yes I look like her too. I think it's my lips that polls such results. My thick luscious lips. hahaaa.. Lavina comes to mind as I’m typing this. Kinda miss her and those DFS days. Not the job per say, but rather the friends at work. Friends, not colleagues. Daily 5hrs of fun. Anyways, the one person the I am happy to look akin to though is Michelle Rodrigues. The lame-o website has that opinion too it seems. She played the gungho tomboy in Resident Evil. So ok lah ah.
She I'm OK with. heee...

To sum up this whining of an entry.. I've come to a conclusion that I look strict, garang and mcm iyer-iyer... Kompom. IF you dunno me la. Once you take the time to know me, I'm actually quite laidback, chill but still mcm iyer-iyer. Hahaaa!

But whatever it is, I like ME! No doubt about it.
Syukur Alhamdulillah.


p/s: dun even wana mention the link to that urgh website.
So dun ask. :P

06052007

Been wanting to post an entry but Blogspot screwed up on me for a couple of days. The whole page was brown in colour and there wasn't any space for me to write so this delay is inevitable I guess. Finally I got in today. Bro suggested I open a new blog account yesterday. Ape sajer jerrr.. Fyi, he said, in his best opinion, that the error was because I have too much crap posted so that's why Blogspot couldn't take anymore of my BS. heeee.. Bro, tho u pain in my a$$, i love u still.... i think? haha!

In these couple of weeks, from date 29042007, Syukur Alhamdulillah, life for me has been very good. I feel blessed and touched by all that has happened. So many events, memories, happenings unfolded and jam-packed in a short period of time, I can't help to feel a lil' overwhelmed by it. But all is g0o0o0d. I'm so not complaining. =) I realise the special the memory holds for me, the shorter my entry. P&C lah coz I'm a P&C kinda person. Saper yang tau, taulah iye.. heee...

06052007 - a day filled with sweet smiles... laughter.. support... suspense... no worries..."give way pls".. 1st picture taken together- ever!... menggigil (tee hee) 1st gear?... 3rd gear? ... walking slower than norm, focus... doa at the tangga :) Amin... appreciation... introduction...idle chatting...nyakat session.. sedare, haha..engine warm up... connection... mak merayau.. abah pendiam?... hahaa!.. haaaiiiz.... lo0o0ong sigh of relief...hee hee.. 2 thumbs up.. "i suka, i suka"... grateful..i'm glad... Syukur kepada Illahi...hope...berdoa dan berdoalah lagi...
Insya Allah. Amin.

Oh yah... before I drift into Shah's world any deeper, I gotta congratulate Ayob for being raja sehari on that day. But the real king is none other than my ...... hey hey. :)

Moga2 this silly smile is plastered on my face for a long time coming.
I ask Allah to give me, us strength on whatisalreadywritten for me, us in the future..




=Nothing but supplication averts the decree, and nothing but righteousness increases life.(Tirmidhi).(Sayings of Muhammad. by Prof. Ghazi Ahmad).=

freedom of choice ~~

Syukur Alhamdulillah! Segala puji bagi Allah.

290407 . (my birthday month still. yessa!)

A day I shall keep close to my heart as long as Allah SWT allows for it to beat with life.

Insya Allah, I'll "Always here for you."

"I wanna make you smile whenever youre sad. Carry you around when your arthritis is bad. All I wanna do is grow old with you. Ill get your medicine when your tummy aches. Build you a fire if the furnace breaks. Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you.."

Lovin' it. Top 10 on 10. Of course there's that other oh so touching Aris A song. Sing for me plsssss... hehee.

p/s: Post very vague? Supposed to be. Too private to share la.. But too happy to contain. hahaa! Strictly for my gentle G. SSA. "Bahu ada bengkak." Haa...