Slotting some bloggin' time

I'll reach work, Insya Allah, around 845. This is not good considering the first class of UMV starts TODAY at 9am. I hope there's not much screw-ups today. Sure, there are going to be screw ups but I'm just praying for minimised catastrophe to happen. I can think of many possibility as I'm typing this now........Oh well, as Beatles would have you to sing, Let it be...... Let it be... WhispeR words of wisdom, let it be. - Ok, the last part I just had to continue singing. Haha.

Many thing happened and I just had not the time nor energy to blog it down. Since I don't plan to sleep the busride through. I'm goin to slot in this time to do just that. I find myself stealing bits and pieces of time now that I'm married. Even the act of shampooing the hair I've got to have sheduled...And I don't even have my babies yet. Insya Allah... Oh yes, talking about babies, Aziyan posed me the question a few days back, why is it not as simple for married ppl to have babies compared to dating couples who have babies out of wedlock? Sad but true.. Personally, to me it's a cobaan. It's always easier for you to sin than to do good so based on that, the married couple just have to practise an iman called, in this case patience... I just for Allah swt to answer my prayers SOON. Ma ayang has loved me more than I can ever say, and for me to be able to give him good news would just be awesome. I so wanna see his face.... Ya ALLAH!

K yesterday, I chose the wrong seat in the bus to work. I couldn't sleep the entire ride lah. wasted to da max! Precious snooze time gone. Hmmmm... Come to think of it, I'm so tempted to just shut this LapLog and catch some shut eye while I can. I reckon I still have maybe half hour before I reach bedok. I'll do just that. I wanna write about punching bag, zuleha and privacy soon. Insya Allah.. Over the weekend I suppose. See how lah.. hahaha.. so the weak, Shah.

i try.

I'm pushing lights-off to 15min later. The darned quizes on FB really takes up time! Today's a good day, Alhamdulillah. Know what, I'm all tired now. Let's skip this writing thing for yet another day. Sheesh...

Reason for tears!

3 years of this. 3 more years of this. I'm sad lah. At work and at Isun.

Even just sliding the grills to one side so that I'll have an unblocked/untrapped view gives me sacred relief. Freedom. Even though I'm facing the opposite block which is really in-my-face near, I welcome the freedom of literally moving the 'prison bar grills" to one side. If I can move to one side all the pricks in my life from arrogant SOBs who think they know better just because they have a degree, from the stupid fat SIL who has such a big head she deserves a good whack in the head for her senses to return.. SOMEBODY PLEASE PUT HER IN HER PLACE. From the mother in law who think that her daughter is the best being who does no wrong, from the powerless men who says they are in charge but cower when situations calls for them to get up, stand up. Stand up for your rights!

Ya Allah. Life is just too hard for me. I wanna go back Pasir Ris but i'LL be broke by Sunday.

I just wanna get out lah. 3 years is too long.

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I just had Battura meal with me dear ayang. Scrumptious meal, Syukur Alhamdulillah. I've fallen in love with the sambar which I shall affectionately call now as Shaik Andy. Hahahaa.. That's how delish the sambar is and much I love it. Gotta learn how to cook it. Ma ayang has left me to go toilet break. "The perot very bad" hahahaa... I like him. I'm now at Komala's with my
LapLog and the lady in front just said 'fantastic".
HAHAHAHA! I wished ma ayang was here - An Indian saying the word is really "FANDASDIC" to hear. :D

Time stood still for a few minutes for me two days ago. It stood still long enough for me to complete reading an e-mail that I've received 11 April 2009. I realised I have 232 e-mails when I last logged in hotmail 2 days ago and I'm glad I didn't just click delete for this particular e-mail sent. Blast from the past really. I haven't realised how far I have moved on and how easy it is for me to face forward and not look back. It's so easy for me that I can't help but to feel guilty that I'm able to leave my past 'just like that". Acts from my past I dun wish to recall but the people or person from my past, I can so easily "forget' or "not remember" says something about me. Do I have a heart of stone?? Am I that cold??

thoughtsended at 7.14pm


thoughtsinteruppted on 04/05/2009 at 11.57pm:

I just realised how darn easy it is to get access to my password-secured journo. So simple I'm tempted to change the my current password to "LAME-O". I feel like such an ass for believing that I actually have my own domain to honestly clear my head... Shame shame on me lah. Gosh.
Now that I know my thoughts are indeed interrupted by other's viewing, I feel curbed in writing my honestly. Thus the "fool-proof" security of an enabled password. So much for that! Ma ayang showed the way and I was speechless. This is definitely not going to stop writing though. I'm too much of a scatterbrain that I cannot afford NOT to write down my thoughts. A channel for me to vent and let out some steam, if you will, just so I can stay focused. And honestly I dun even bother to figure out another way to prevent other ppl from going round the Password thingy to read. At the least I can minimise viewership. For the uninitiated, the password prompt will be a tool to subtly tell them to "shoo.. go away." :) But I can't stop those who's more determined than others, can I?
Just a word of warning, when I write, I assume no one and I mean NO ONE should be able to view this. If you are one of those who can and feel hurt with what you learn from this page, tough. I dun wanna apologise for something I dun mean to do. So if are hurt, I strongly suggest you act like one of the uninitiated when you see the password prompt coz I am subtly saying to YOU with all due respect "shoo.. Go away."

Having expressed all that, I need to give due notice to this fren o'mine.

One question to you: How are you, really? Are you living life the proper way? Whatever downside you think you have or will need to face, just remember that Allah swt does not give us more than we can handle. There's zero excuse for keep repeatinng to do the things we do that is prohibited in this life.
I sincerely hope you're doing allright. Be happy. Be good.