STOP!!!!!

I'm back to smoking again. I know I shouldn't...


Work's an embarrassement - I'm in charge of the toilet. Toilet!

Think they want me to leave but I gotta grit my teeth and hang on until i get my long overdue dip.. then can belah!!!!!

No two ways about it. Hubby's out of the pic. He won't understand. We come from different environment. I resent the fact that he doesn't back me up and I dun allow myself to talk to him about work anymore because of this.

So yah. I have to tahan being bullied at work, study in the evenings, be a wife who can't complain and daughter in law who's invisible, daughter who parents I strongly suspect regret of having. Oh and top of all this, my shoulder's aching like a bitch!


There's no reason to pick it up again, I know but I just need to relax and be slow again.. Everthing's on super speed mode and I hate it. Having said that, I've only myself to blame for being too carefree the past years. Wasted. Playing catch up is a pain!

I hope I'm not pregnant.