12 Rabiulawal 1428H @ saturdaymarch31st
Salam Maulidur Rasul buat sumer!!!
Woke up just in time to catch the persembahan Maulidur Rasul, sambutan yang disiarkan secara langsung di TV1. Ada jugak kesedaran dan peringatan yang dapat saya mengabsorbkan dalam masa 1 jam tu. Power ah Malaysia. Merdeka! :D
To think we make more fuss over made-up Valentines day here... :S Urgh.
The show was 1stly to remind us how much of a sacrifice our prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) has made for us all. We should model after him to become fine muslims but this is hard for me...
Side-track a bit, I have to add here that I finally saw the face behind the beautiful voice from the not-so-many nasheeds I've listened to before. Everyone knows Siti Nurhaliza but don't think the same number of ppl will know the face of Asri Ibrahim. He's in the same league as Siti N. to me voice wise, but this guy sings only God-conscious songs, so ALL points added in his favour. heee... I tell you, you should hear him sing. Masya Allah.
Muhasabah time!
(always a good side-effect from watching any religious-themed programme)
There are moments when I feel I haven't changed at all from my post hijab days. What is wrong with me? I may look like how a supposed Muslim lady should look on the outside, but look within, I still feel like the same person I was before. Angry, temperamental, vulgar. Simply weak. Aaaaarrrggghhhh! Only Allah swt knows how I try. I should try harder I know. When they say "there's always room for improvement", mine's not a room. It's the whole house.
I listened to a sermon from http://ahmadjibril.com/media.html titled Islamic Manners: How to deal with oppression and anger? If I remember correctly, it sends the message that whenever you feel like squeezing someone's neck, don't. #1 Be quiet. Don't talk when you're angry. #2 If you're being angered standing up, you should change position and sit. If current position's sitting, you should go lie down. And if that doesn't help, #3 go take wudhu. Anger is fuelled by syaitan and syaitan is smokeless fire. So the devil is fuelling your anger to do something majorly reckless and sinful like actually stabbing someone just because you were blindfolded with rage by the devil himself. (hello0o0o0..crime of passion anyone?) or maybe just the "spontaneous, normal" swear words resulting from such anger because you just need to vent thus not practising #1 :S This, I'm guilty of. Sigh..
By taking wudhu, you're putting out that raging fire the devil is fuelling in you, thus shutting him up. Yeay! I've tried this method at home once when I was angered by... I can't remember what, I'm guessing the financial situation but Alhamdullilah, I managed to put out the devil's fire in me to pacify myself. Cool as a cat. Yes yes.. The many times I feel like taking wudhu when I'm at work.... The callers, the ppl at work. (Sometimes they're my colleagues but most times they're just "ppl at work") Or the time when a friend accused, verbally abused and expected me to just sit there and take it aaall in... Whatever lah ah.
I know there's no excuse to justify my brash behaviour. Everytime I'm mad, I can feel myself transforming not into the Incredible Hulk, no. Much worse than the green marvel beast himself, I become the old ME - foul-mouthed, crude me. Gasp! Difference here is just the hijab covering my hair. Shah.... Shah... Sigh.. :{ Change should first start with the man in the mirror I know, but.................. K k. No buts. Change should first start with the man in the mirror full stop. I'm cutting down on the swearing.
I'm being realistic here. Cutting down considerably and to not even utter a single cuss one day, that is the aim. Insya Allah. For You Allah, I will.
No point talking more about it. Talk is cheap. In this case, talk is weak. Action speaks so much louder and gets the message across clearER. Islam is cool that way. I love my religion. I love being a muslim. All I have to do now, is to be a good one. Insya Allah.
Woke up just in time to catch the persembahan Maulidur Rasul, sambutan yang disiarkan secara langsung di TV1. Ada jugak kesedaran dan peringatan yang dapat saya mengabsorbkan dalam masa 1 jam tu. Power ah Malaysia. Merdeka! :D
To think we make more fuss over made-up Valentines day here... :S Urgh.
The show was 1stly to remind us how much of a sacrifice our prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) has made for us all. We should model after him to become fine muslims but this is hard for me...
Side-track a bit, I have to add here that I finally saw the face behind the beautiful voice from the not-so-many nasheeds I've listened to before. Everyone knows Siti Nurhaliza but don't think the same number of ppl will know the face of Asri Ibrahim. He's in the same league as Siti N. to me voice wise, but this guy sings only God-conscious songs, so ALL points added in his favour. heee... I tell you, you should hear him sing. Masya Allah.
Muhasabah time!
(always a good side-effect from watching any religious-themed programme)
There are moments when I feel I haven't changed at all from my post hijab days. What is wrong with me? I may look like how a supposed Muslim lady should look on the outside, but look within, I still feel like the same person I was before. Angry, temperamental, vulgar. Simply weak. Aaaaarrrggghhhh! Only Allah swt knows how I try. I should try harder I know. When they say "there's always room for improvement", mine's not a room. It's the whole house.
I listened to a sermon from http://ahmadjibril.com/media.html titled Islamic Manners: How to deal with oppression and anger? If I remember correctly, it sends the message that whenever you feel like squeezing someone's neck, don't. #1 Be quiet. Don't talk when you're angry. #2 If you're being angered standing up, you should change position and sit. If current position's sitting, you should go lie down. And if that doesn't help, #3 go take wudhu. Anger is fuelled by syaitan and syaitan is smokeless fire. So the devil is fuelling your anger to do something majorly reckless and sinful like actually stabbing someone just because you were blindfolded with rage by the devil himself. (hello0o0o0..crime of passion anyone?) or maybe just the "spontaneous, normal" swear words resulting from such anger because you just need to vent thus not practising #1 :S This, I'm guilty of. Sigh..
By taking wudhu, you're putting out that raging fire the devil is fuelling in you, thus shutting him up. Yeay! I've tried this method at home once when I was angered by... I can't remember what, I'm guessing the financial situation but Alhamdullilah, I managed to put out the devil's fire in me to pacify myself. Cool as a cat. Yes yes.. The many times I feel like taking wudhu when I'm at work.... The callers, the ppl at work. (Sometimes they're my colleagues but most times they're just "ppl at work") Or the time when a friend accused, verbally abused and expected me to just sit there and take it aaall in... Whatever lah ah.
I know there's no excuse to justify my brash behaviour. Everytime I'm mad, I can feel myself transforming not into the Incredible Hulk, no. Much worse than the green marvel beast himself, I become the old ME - foul-mouthed, crude me. Gasp! Difference here is just the hijab covering my hair. Shah.... Shah... Sigh.. :{ Change should first start with the man in the mirror I know, but.................. K k. No buts. Change should first start with the man in the mirror full stop. I'm cutting down on the swearing.
I'm being realistic here. Cutting down considerably and to not even utter a single cuss one day, that is the aim. Insya Allah. For You Allah, I will.
No point talking more about it. Talk is cheap. In this case, talk is weak. Action speaks so much louder and gets the message across clearER. Islam is cool that way. I love my religion. I love being a muslim. All I have to do now, is to be a good one. Insya Allah.
posted by Sssshhh....Shah at
3/31/2007 12:32:00 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]
<< Home